I would say dream, but in reality it is a nightmare! Recently, and more and more often, I have dreams about Tracie. The reason they are nightmares is because in the dreams she never died. It is present day, and her and I talk about things, like wow it's weird that for the last year and a half we thought you were dead, etc. (For those who don't know, my sister Tracie was killed in a car accident on October 6, 2006.)
Last night for instance, Tracie and I were talking and I asked her what she felt. I said, "Obviously you are alive now, but you DID die, even for a little while because they said you did, so what did you feel." Now one may think her response would be peace or nothing or whatever, but this is what she said, "I felt the Truth." That's right! She felt Truth! SO, I do not think this dream was a nightmare after all, because for that moment God used my nightmare to remind me where she is. She is in Heaven, and one day I WILL get to talk to her again, in Heaven!
During my daily routine I handle her death pretty well. However, just yesterday I talked to My Lobster about it. It is just so unreal to me! There were 4 of us, and now there's 3! Our identity is forever changed it seems.
The only reason I do handle her death well is because I know without a shadow of a doubt that she is in Heaven and I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will join her there someday. Do you know without a shadow of a doubt where you will end up? Let me just say this...
Have you ever told a lie? Yes, we all have, well guess what? You and I and everyone else is destined for HELL! Even one small lie is a sin and sining is our one way ticket to Hell. Scary thought, huh? There is hope, JESUS! There is only one way to Heaven! You cannot earn your way into Heaven! No matter what you do you will ALWAYS fall short! We have to be PERFECT to get into Heaven. So, yes, that ONE LIE is enough to send you to Hell for all eternity... regardless of anything "good" you did on Earth. God sent His only Son to earth. He lived a Holy and Perfectly Blameless life. He was killed on the Cross where He endured the very fires of Hell that were meant for you and me. All you have to do is open your heart to Him, and accept Him as your Lord and Savior! THAT'S IT... IT IS SO SIMPLE!!! I sin everyday, as everyone does, but since Jesus Christ has Saved me, I am going to Heaven regardless of that sin! You see, when God looks down on whom to punish, He does not see me, He sees that Holy and Blameless Son, Jesus!
If you want to know more about this please talk to me! If you do not have Jesus you will go to Hell, PERIOD!
PS, that was the TRUTH Tracie referred to in my dream... that the only way to Heaven is through Jesus and NOTHING else!
Here are a few pictures of Tracie and I growing up. I have loads more, but I am not on my computer so I had to steal from my pictures on facebook! lol
in reverse birth order! Circa 1994?
Christmas 1993?
March 2002! 6 years ago, are you kidding me?!?
Our last COMPLETE Christmas card, Christmas 2005.
For Memorial Day, we spent the weekend with my inlaws. (The above picture was taken by accident in traffic on the way home... I love it)
Jersey LOVES his grandpa! Grandpa dotes on Jersey like you wouldn't believe! He built this dog run for Jersey so he could play while daddy and grandpa worked in the yard and on the cars.
I looked outside and couldn't find Jersey, I was a little scared, but then...
Jersey noticed I spotted him, and he awoke from his nap. He hid behind the bushes to get in the shade away from the heat! He is so cute!
Grandpa played with Jersey every free chance. When we were getting ready to leave, grandpa ran in and asked me how fast my camera was. He was so impressed by Jersey's jumping height, that he wanted me to catch a picture. Such the proud grandpa! (this pic does not do justice to Jersey's abilities... he can jump SO HIGH)!
On the way there we stopped for a potty break. Daddy and Jersey were outside and when I came to join them, daddy decided to let Jersey run towards me across a busy parking lot. You can imagine my alarm at this. I yelled, "MY LOBSTER" and reached for Jersey, (praying he wouldn't run in front of a car). Jersey ran so fast out of excitement to see me that he passed me a little, (he couldn't stop fast enough). When he passed me I caught his leash in my arm and this was the result... the pic does no justice, and it was more painful than I could have imagined!
On one of our walks, Jersey encountered a friend poking his head through the gate. Isn't that cute!?!
Photo shoot in the trees... he is ready for his close up, Mr. De Mille!
He really enjoyed daddy's joke.... just kidding... ;)
No one every takes our picture, so I always have to do it... sorry for the terrible angles that you always encounter.
My boys
He loves his Daddy!
grrrrr
Is this not the sweetest thing? We need a baby, I know!
