Sunday, September 7, 2008

Anxiety over my sister, Tracie...

For those of you who don’t know, my sister Tracie was killed in a car accident on October 6, 2006. Lately I have been battling bouts of anxiety about her and to combat this I wrote this poem. It did help, but I still need prayer!
I am overcome with anxiety,
My heartbeat soars,
I have trouble breathing
It shakes me to the core.
I know who’s at fault,
Who is causing all this,
The culprit is Satan
And he’s using my sis.
This time last year
I felt this way too.
Always around the anniversary
And I don’t know what to do.
People worship my sister
And it just drives me crazy!
We are supposed to worship God
And not worship Tracie!
She cannot answer your prayers
So stop praying to her!
The only one who can is God-
He has all the power!
Stop saying “rest in peace”
Cause it couldn’t be more wrong!
She is alive and well,
Worshiping God in song!

So you say you knew my sister,
And you say you’re heartbroken.
You say you miss her so dearly,
But do you know what I have left unspoken?
She was my SISTER,
Not just my friend!
Her death changed my life,
And my heart will never truly mend.
People seem to forget
Since I am “so strong,”
And I don’t cry all the time,
But you couldn’t be more wrong.
My pain is real,
But hope gets me through,
I rejoice in where she is,
But I still miss her, its true!
I can rejoice for I know
She hasn’t really left us.
Tracie is in Heaven
Alive and well with Jesus!
He is the only way to Heaven,
The only other option is Hell,
And everyone is a sinner
Even if you live your life well!
All it takes is ONE SIN
To send you to Hell,
But I have good news
Which below I will tell:
Jesus died for our sins,
He paid for our debt!
We can join Him in Heaven,
If His free gift we accept!
Just accept Him as your Savior,
And repent of your sins.
Now you can have True Joy
As your new life begins.
I have True Joy
And God is my Comfort!
Bring it on Satan,
But you best be on alert:
"My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness " Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12: 9-10


  1. I can only imagine what it is like to have a sibling and to have one taken away. Our sermon yesterday was so fitting for the way you are feeling. In short it was about how good things can happen to bad people and bad things can happen to good people and while we may ask "where's God" we should rest in the assurance that God is still working. A verse that sticks out to me is Job 1:20 "...The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised." I hope one day we can all say this with praise in our hearts for God. He gave us Tracie; she touched many lives and will be remembered for her legacy; God took her from the earth but we can rejoice and praise Him for the time he gave us with her and the eternity we will share. I hope you find these words encouraging. I love you.

  2. Isn't it funny how being in the depths of despair produces great poetry? I've had that happen many a time.
    I'm praying for you, Tricia. Love you!