Annie and I are heading to Houston on Wednesday, and we are so excited!
There is one thing that I am hesitant about. My weight. With the stress I have experienced this year and my crazy crazy hormones, I have put on weight. I do not plan on keeping this weight on, but I have not yet fixed my hormones and therefore am still fighting the bulge.
Until I was about 23, my entire life I hated my body. Like, stood in my closet crying because all my size 3 clothes made me look fat. I was so tempted to becoming bulimic.
By the grace of God I was released of those chains, and even at my heaviest I am not upset about it. I want to lose weight for my health, but my looks do not rule my life like they used to.
However, I am a little hesitant to come to Houston with the way I look. I know people will pass judgement and such. My looks no longer rule my life, but like any other woman, it is a bit of an issue sometimes.
I just ask you to be kind and to remember that much of my weight gain was out of my control. Last year I lost 25 lbs and it was super easy, (though I have put all that back on). Once I get my hormones in order, I plan to get back on that track and hit my goal weight in 2013.
Just to explain what I am going through a little further: I am very happy- I love where we live, my husband, Annie, etc. But my hormones make me feel almost depressed. I know it is just hormones and not true depression because I have done the research, but feeling this way is awful. You know when Aunt Flow is in town and you get weepy, sad, etc for no reason. That is how I feel a lot right now. I hate it! I almost feel bipolar because I am so so so happy, but that sadness creeps in out of nowhere. It's so lame. I hate you hormones!
So, just please be kind and enjoy our company. We can't wait to see YOU! :)